Friday, July 2, 2010

and then i don't like fridays at all.

My Friday was suppose to be the "crème de la crème" of my days, enough for me to say at my wit's end, "TGIF!". But as of the moment, I merely vomit at the thought of hearing that Friday's coming. I love my work Lord. God knows how I love it. But to the point of killing myself (I felt like exaggerating now), and mustering all my effort of self-preservation and girding my patience, all I can say is "give me liberty or give me death!". I can hold it but NOT now. This is the very moment when all I want is for the earth to swallow me up. In fact, gobble me up.

It baffles me sometimes if I am still attuned with myself or the whiner in me just squeals too much. I don't know whom to reach and to air these concerns that were boiling inside me. It's a denial, but I don't want to reach a meltdown. Am I burning out? Stress becomes my lover now and I coy at the slightest indifference I want to show. I made love to stress everyday, and I don't know if I am still reaching climax. Flaccid. I want to rest. Deadlines meet deadlines and my sanity's hanging at balance. Breather. Breather. Breathe. Right now, I am staring at the monitor with nothing but a poker face and a carte blanche to complain. I'm trying my best not to whine. Let this blog be the sole witness.

The spirit's willing but the flesh is weak to complain. As I've said before, I did my best to muster patience and to pocket my litany of complains. But the pocket's shallow and it overflows. Sigh. Sigh. Help. Help.

10 comments:

lars (not my real name) said...

just the thought of you have a job while some don't is enough. won't it make sense after you receive your payslip? LOL. hold still buddy! soon enough zombie apocalypse will fall upon this land and you don't have to deal with your present problems.

khantotantra said...

hope you will have time to relax and unwind.

Rah said...

hire someone to do the job for you :D

glentot said...

Parang di nila maibibigay ang LIBERTY so DEATH na lang hahaha

goyo said...

kaya mo yan! :D

mjomesa said...

@lars: you have a point. but i just can't help it.

@khanto: hope. hope. i hope.

@rah: as much as i want to..but i can't

@glentot: nagri-rigor mortis na ako kahit buhay pa..T_T

@goyo: thanks tol...sana nga..

victor said...

A Friday is always the deep breath before the plunge. I hope you enjoyed your weekend.

Arvin U. de la Peña said...

relax ka muna..

Sendo said...

oy..stress kills ha..kaya magrelax rin haha...grabe dugay na ko wala kadakop nimo gaonline sa FB haha..murag grabe na gyud ng pagkabusy-ha..sige ra...wishing u the best out of the stresses haha..God bless u

Sendo said...

pasabot ani na comment dugay na gyud ko la kabisita diri haha....dahan busyha gud....ayoa yo sa tanang kabusy