fearfully and wonderfully made.

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” ~Psalm 139:14

The whole of Psalm 139 is a miracle that continues everyday especially as I look at the most complicated things around me up to the tiniest detail of the small creatures crawling on my foot. As I watched this video created by Cristobal Vila, I could not help but be amazed by how intricate each design and how God personally left His fingerprints in each. This experience was not new to me since the day I watched "How Great Is Out God" and "Laminin" by Louie Giglio. To look at the vast beauty of space and the complexity of body's building block was just so impossible to comprehend, but needless to say a big leap for faith.

The Fibonacci number, the Golden Ratio and the Phi are just fractals of what there is in the vastness of God's power. God is the greatest engineer whose designs are shown in the intricacy of human body, from the blood to our brain. We are not merely accidents or coincidence in the universe. Our body is God's most wonderful blueprint which contains no error or flaw.

Let me quote Dr. Paul Brand and Philip Yancey from Fearfully and Wonderfully Made,

The function of the digestive tract and the related organs, the longevity of the heart, the formation and function of nerves and of blood vessels, the cleansing of the blood through the kidneys, the complexity of the inner and middle ear, the sense of taste and smell, and so many other things we barely understand—each one is a marvel and beyond man’s ability to duplicate. Truly, we are fearfully and wonderfully made. How grateful we are to know the Creator—through His Son, Jesus Christ—and to marvel not only at His knowledge but also at His love (Psalm 139:17-24).

We are more than the Nautilus, sunflower and dragonfly!

surprise.

Life can be full of surprises. One will eat (without the slightest reservation) everything this crappy world will give, starting from the government, to the media, up to the least plebeian you can find in this godforsaken place. I'm not being pessimistic in a strictest sense but I am just fed up by endless commotion in media and rantings from those politicians. They flaunt their stench and putrid scheming resumes and platforms, and sometime later lurks in the deepest cove of their seats feeding their selfish ids.

Not only that, the endless publicity of the celebrities and how they endlessly lick the plethora of fame and media debauchery. I love fame. But not as much as this. Picture this, Lady Gaga collapsing because of overwork. Or is it?

Look around you, while the people up there taste the phenomenal clicks of the camera, the paupery of men bask themselves under the sun of hopelessness, worthy to be called "despaired hopefuls".While the stars engrossed themselves with Oscars and Emmys, the despondent souls frowned in their own limelights.

Surprising? I call it paradox.

Gosh! I Miss France!

Char! Sosyal!

Pinagtitripan ko lang kayo. I have never been to France or to any place outside the country. Puro places sa Pinas ang napuntahan ko, so far. It's really my dream, however, to be in different countries in different continents especially in Europe. Parang romantic kasi dun. Char!

Anyway, the France I'm referring to is a friend of mine. This entry is about my nostalgic account of this unforgettable friendship and the many friendships I met in life (sa madaling sabi, isa 'tong walang kwentang ka-emohan sa life). Anyway, bago lang kasi kaming nagkita nung nagkaroon ng Teacher's Summit sa Cagayan de Oro. *sigh* Na-miss ko talaga si Churvz (screen name nya, joke...), kaya naman chika kami to the max. Well, she (yes! she's a she.) invited me in her wedding. She secretly disclosed to me that I'll be the Emcee sa wedding niya. It made me, "Huh?!" Ano naman ang alam ko sa Emceeing na yan? I admit I was once an Emcee in our variety show way back in college. "OK, Help me in welcoming (ngatal boses epek) the PERFORMANCERS!" Sheks! Wapek! Kaboom! Nalaglag ata ang panga ko kasama ang mga panga ng classmates ko at professor. Since then, I promised myself that I would not endeavor to be in this kind of limelight. This will be the end of my budding celebrity-wannabe dreams. Until dumating ang moment na eto. *sigh* *sigh* *sigh to the infinity* I'm sure hindi ito kakayanin ng powers bestowed upon me by the Department of Education. *sigh*

So, napatanong ako, "Churvz, are you sure na ako ang kukunin mo? Why, oh why?" "Sabi nya, (effortlessly confident) "Kasi nga, ayoko na maging serious masyado ang wedding ko. Kayong dalawa ni ******* ang magkasama. Kaya nyo kasing magpatawa without lifting a finger." *SIGH*

Churvz, you should've hired a clown instead. Kaya ngayon, aminin ko man na I'm excited to attend her wedding pero parang mababaliw ata ako everytime I imagine myself as the Emcee. Shucks! Paano na lang ang dignidad na pinanghahawakan ko? Naisuko ko na eto before, and now parang may sequel ata. Well, naisip ko din, "for the sake of friendship na lang".

Ika nga ni friendship Bernard Meltzer, "A true friend is someone who thinks you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked." Katuparan na ba 'to ng propesiya? Well, again, naisip ko na, "for the sake of friendship na lang talaga ito." Marami-rami na din akong moments like this. One was when I invited my classmate for a boxing match. Inumbag nya ako sa ilong, kaya yun napa-cry me a river ako. Forgiven, kasi nga friends at fault ko din, I didn't inform him na asset ko ang ilong ko and I want it always in its pristine form. Actually, marami na talaga akong pinagdaanan na vulnerable moments dahil sa friendship churva na yan. I felt abused, molested and degraded by this (drama lang to, let me have my moment, please...).

But I still have apprehensions now. "Itutuloy ko ba ang momentous moment na eto?" Ika nga, "the greatest performance of my life." So far. Help!

pinirata ang picture dito (sorry, 'di natiis eh).

Ay si Lolo!

Si Lolo talaga.

Actually, it was almost midnight when my friend and I decided to buy sundae in McDo. Grabe, masyadong buhay pa 'yong gabi kasi dami pa ng tao at chog-chogs pa 'yong music. Loud and very enticing. So there, bili na kami ng sundae and diretso na sa house. We decided to eat it sa bahay na lang. We just walked, isa pa, malamig naman ang hangin and there were few people na lang sa daan. There's Lolo (he's not actually, but i think he is), coughing with the other hand at the back and the other outstretched to beg for my sundae. Sa isip-isip ko, inuubo na nga si Lolo, so why do I have to give him my sundae? I was about to give it but then, I saw something glowing at the back. Hmmm..it was actually a cigarette. *sigh* Naughty Lolo. Kaya pala inuubo. Disappointing si Lolo, so I brought my sundae home and let my cravings melt with it.

Tutulungan ko naman si Lolo eh, but my point is, dapat he has to help himself first. I have reasons to help him, but so many reasons not to. How about you? What will you do?

worn-out but happy

Bygones are bygones…

Well, life is a big bowl of mess and you have to dive in that litter if you want to experience what life is. I surpassed the pain of life (so far) and it seems the more I got away, the more i like myself to indulge in it's little pleasure and pain. Hmmm..looks like more of my masochistic nature. Harhar..*_*.. Well, I am enjoying every piece of it. I just pray for everything to be in place. I pray for life. I pray for love. I pray for everything. I got my life. And i think it's an everyday gift. Cherishing....